I've been playing Silent Hill 3 for the past couple of days. Along with Okami, but I stopped because the game got long-winded. Okami is a good game, but damn, it gets pretty repetitive and boring. Anyways, I'm going back to school tomorrow, and I'm pretty damn excited.
This one was pretty funny. Thank god for bored nerds like me.
On a completely different note. I found a new Chinese boy band group called Fahrenheit. This music video hit a soft spot inside of me. Despite their attention on that one girl.
After watching it again, I cried twice as hard, because the trip Tsukushi was making made it unbearable for me because I knew at the end she'd see Tsukasa kissing that other girl. I can't see the screen too well through the tears.
Here's the insert song in the drama that I absolutely love, a lot more than Planetarium.
E-mail I wrote Skye after watching the 2nd episode of Hana Yori Dango 2.
[I just finished watching Hana Yori Dango 2, and near the end, I cried and cried and cried, until at the very end where that girl kisses Tsukasa in front of Tsukushi at the place they were suppose to meet. That's where I broke into unbareable tears and holding my hand up to my mouth to hold back any sobbing that would've happened from my crying.
Oh my god Skye, I've never cried this hard for a drama before. Sure I've cried plenty of times during some of the dramas I've watched like Sam Soon and It Started With A Kiss, but instead of crying because what happened was so sad, I cried because what happened was so painful for me. God, how many times have I typed the word 'cried'.
Is this a taste of how I'll feel if I ever saw someone I loved kissing someone else? Oh my god, you better be there for me if it does, or else I'll kill small animals. Animals you love.
During the episode, I understood how the mere thought of losing Tsukasa made her cry. I've had that happen to me on numerous occasions concerning you and a handful of my closer friends.
Well, I'm going to watch the last minutes of the drama again before I go to sleep, goodnight.]
[Korean Gaydar Technology Lags Behind International Standards
Despite being a leader in manufacturing LCD screens and flash memory chips, Korea is still years behind the cutting edge in gaydar technology, according a government-commissioned study. Kim Jungho, the director of the study, says, "We're decades behind. If you were to look at American standards, you have would to go back to the days when people thought George Michaels was a ladykiller to find something comparable to the state of Korean gaydar."
Many Koreans agree that the national gaydar standard is low. "I just found out that one of my co-workers is gay and I was shocked," says office worker Lee Jihyun. "In hindsight, I guess there were signs I could've picked up on. He dressed well, he never had a girlfriend, and he was a bit feminine. There was also that time he showed me a wedding album of himself getting married to a man. But for some reason I never put it together."
In order to increase the level of Korea's gaydar technology, Arirang TV will begin broadcasting such shows as "Queer Eye for the Straight Guy", "Queer as Folk", and "Live with Ryan Seacrest."]
For the past couple of weeks, I have been going insane over a friend who came back from school in New York. I love her very much, and our friendship has had our fair share of drama, but in the end, we came together, only to be seperated by college.
Back when she was in New York, we used to call each other every now and then, and see how the other is doing. Usually, she's busy with work while I'm busy with my fashion projects and whatever, so we don't talk as often as we used to. However, we always talked or had some sort of communication going between us whenever we can.
Now she's back, and she hasn't called me since the day I came to pick her up at the airport. I've had trouble coming to terms with the fact that she's gone let alone the reality that she's back for three weeks. And when I call, she doesn't seem to want to talk to me, or she's busy doing something like watching T.V. or with other friends. I make her sound bad, but in truth, I've been the bad friend because I don't make solid plans with her to hang out or spend time with her. She doesn't trust me driving, which is a very reasonable mistrust, so I can't drive her to places to hang out.
I think she's angry with me. I don't know exactly what, I have guesses, such as I don't call her enough, don't try hard enough, call her too much, or am trying too hard to force her to hang out with me. Then it hit me while I was in tears yesterday: She didn't come over to New York JUST to see me. She came to visit her family and friends. I figure it's wrong to treat it like it is all about me, so I backed off on desperate hang out plans.
This sucks, I seem to can't do anything right. It's no wonder she doesn't trust me. However, throughout all this, I wish she called me at least once to wipe out my paranoia of many sorts. I'm really frustrated, hurt, and saddened by all of this, but I'll try again to figure out a plan to hang out with her.
"To receive, you must be willing to give first." This quote has many variations, but it's a philosophy I try to follow so I don't get into a situation where I blame everyone but me, and become bitter over things when I don't even try. I will try to hang out with my friend, and I'll try to come up with better plans that even she will approve of. Because during a time of mental breakdown, I called her and asked if she even wanted to hang out with me, and she said, "Yes." That's all I need to know right? I made the mistake of not trusting her before, I'll do my best not to make that mistake again.
I'm feeling nostalgic lately with memories of my middle school times. I remember my small but close anime posse of Skye, Wesley, Alex, and last but not least, Rusty.
One of my more fonder memories were of a anime series called Slayers. Here are the openings and ending that I liked from times past but not forgotten.
Slayers Next
Slayers Try
Korean Version just to mix make things a bit more intersting.
I watched Formula 17 along time ago, and it was the best asian gay film that wasn't porn I've ever seen, but then again, it was the only one at that time. I miss Chinese, gay-based films because they were less serious and more fun than the typical super serious Japanese ones and like the Korean one that recently came out (No Regrets). I'm hoping my friend buys me Go Go G-Boys for my late Christmas present, because it looks like Formula 17 part 2.